We’re backkkkkkk….
It’s been so long since I’ve blogged I think I may have forgotten how! Kellar and I are just enjoying summer though the heat is not a very enjoyable part. We are working on potty training, it’s going pretty good if you consider just dropping your pants and doing what ever the need is no matter where you are. I admit part of it may be my fault since I told him that pottying in the yard meant he was “watering” the grass, that part I’m okay with but his attempt at fertilizing the concrete I’m thinking is not such a great idea. I get pretty tickled at him when he’s on the potty and he says in the sweetest voice “here fishy fishy” okay okay so maybe telling him he’s feeding and watering the fish was stretching the truth a little but if it works it works! I find myself laughing at him here lately so much, I’ve said before how he cracks me up and there’s no way I can ever blog all the funny things this kid says but there are a few I remember. We were in Khols hunting for Fathers Day gifts and for whatever reason we let him walk like a big boy instead of dragging out the stroller, well he decides he’s going to run through the shoe dept like a wild child and I said “Kellar if you don’t get over here I’m going to whoop your tail”, he stopped and looked back at me and said “I don’t have a tail” I guess he told me didn’t he? Joey and Kellar were on the couch playing and Kellar wanted his binky * yes yes yes he still has a binky, he’s my kid and I said it’s ok * and Joey took it and put it behind his back and said we need to throw the binky away, Kellar said “how bout we wait on throwing away the binky” then he proceeded to tell us we needed to go to Wal-Mart and buy him more binkys. He is so bossy but he’s so cute! Joey and I were going back and forth at each other ( we were playing not serious ) and Joey said “woman let me tell you something” we had no idea that Kellar was actually even paying attention to us and a few minutes later Kellar walked into our bedroom where Joey was and turned and stuck his head in the hallway and screamed at the top of his lungs “let me tell you something woman” I walked in the bedroom and found Joey in the closet almost in tears he was laughing so hard! There is never a dull moment. Kellar has also developed a BIG seperation anxiety. I am not able to leave the room without it resulting in a major meltdown, it’s heartbreaking but it is also starting to wear me out. I can’t even go into the next room or if he turns around and can’t see me he panics, I don’t know what to do but I’m hoping returning to work will help some. I have decided to go back to work in the “public” and though it is breaking my heart to think about leaving him and not being able to spend every hour of the day with him I feel that it may be the best thing for Kellar right now especially if we are going to put him in pre-k in August. I am really torn over my choice and have even went back and forth on whether I should do this but I think we are at that point to where Kellar needs to be with someone other than me, for the past 3 years I have been home with him every single day, he’s never spent the night away from Joey or I and it’s just going to make it hard on him when it comes time for school. I have cried and tried to talk myself out of it, I’m gonna miss my baby boy, if it doesn’t work out I won’t hesitate to stay home. Kellar went and spent the day with him Grammy, she wants to come and get him on Mondays, I was really afraid he wasn’t going to go but he did and I think he really enjoyed it. Gosh the last few days have been wild, Michael Jackson died, wow I was a MJ fan when I was younger and I’ve been sitting around watching his videos and I remember every one of them, even remember being in Peppermint Drill Team ( it was a dance team when I was a kid ) and doing a dance to it, I know it’s not Kellar related sorry! I have got tons of pictures to get up, I think the ones where he caught his first fish are priceless. We are going on our first family vacation next weekend, I’m excited and can’t wait. I’ll be back eventually with a picture post….