3 years later…
and I’m still a worry wart. We had such a fun weekend planned but this swine flu scare put a dent in it. I called yesterday and cancelled our reservations for the NICU Reunion, our hotel and the train ride we were going to take from Grapevine to Ft. Worth. I was so looking forward to seeing some of our nurses and getting to see how much Kellars NICU buddies have grown. I took Kellar to the dr Monday and Tuesday, he had a fever over the weekend and had started coughing early Monday morning. On Monday his lungs sounded good so we thought he had just picked up a cough, possibly croup. Joey and I had noticed that Kellars appetite was down and when he attempted to drink he would cry out in pain. I asked for something to numb his throat in case it was beginning to get sore and went ahead and took him back in on Tuesday. The dr swabbed him for flu, strep and mono and thankfully all came back negative. He also ordered blood work since Kellar hadn’t been drinking and a chest xray b/c he sounded differently than he did the day before. The chest xray was done “bigger” to show Kellars sinuses and we also ordered a xray of his belly b/c he was going on 3 days of no poopy. Kellars sinuses were almost completely stopped up and he seriously needed to poo! The dr gave him a shot of antibiotic and put him on oral antibiotics for 10 days and I picked up some suppositories and much to his not liking we had a dirty diaper before the night was over! I am going back and forth on taking him back in, his cough is pretty much nonstop, he’s had fever off and on and his nose is a constant drip! I went ahead and called this afternoon and we’re going to try doing breathing treatments every 4 hrs and see if we can avoid a dr’s visit. Sydney was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday w/pneumonia and dehydration (sound familiar..Kellar was admitted with the same thing in March…) lets pray she gets to come home tomorrow and that Kellar will dodge a admission and get all better at home!
Happy 3rd Birthday…
I can’t believe my baby boy is 3 today. As I sit and think about the last 3 years I look over at my precious little man as he sleeps so peacefully and I smile because he is a miracle! Kellar you are awesome, you are one of the most determined people I have ever met and I know that there is nothing that you won’t do once you put your mind to it. I love you…
Who needs the park..
When Grampy and Papaw will buy me a swingset. Kellar got a early birthday present from his grandparents, he loved it! Kellar was such a little helper outside, he drug his slide all over the yard and could not wait for it to be up so he could slide. It took all of 2 times going down the slide before he decided it would be more exciting to get on the top of the slide, turn around backwards and slide down, then when that got boring to him he stood up and walked down it, my little daredevil! He even enjoyed the swings, for awhile there Kellar did not like the “swinging” motion, he would tolerate it but it was far from being something he was just eager to do but today he swung on it by himself and with papaw. I have a feeling we’ll be spending lots of time outside this summer!
Fun in the sun…
Kellar has been loving playing outside, the weather is starting to get nice though it’s not safe to put away your sweaters and hats just yet. Joey and I have been trying to get Kellar outside to play as much as possible, we took him to the park a few weeks ago and he had a blast! He is getting to be such a big boy and watching him maneuver his way around the playground makes my day. Joey and Kellar flew kites one afternoon, it was a rather chilly day ( reason #1 we still have winter stuff in our closets ) so we didn’t linger long but I got some extremely cute pictures so here’s a sneak peek at what Kellars been up to..
August it is….
Today we had another meeting with the pre-k to go over Kellars scores and see what they were wanting to offer as far as services go. Here are Kellars scores:
Developmental Assessment of Young Children
Adaptive Behavior- Standard score 87, 26 months 19%tile
Cognitive- Standard score 95, 32 months 37%tile
Communication- Standard score 89, 28 months 23%tile
General Development Quotient- Standard score 94, 34%tile
Physical- Standard score 95, 31 months 37%tile
Social-Emotional- Standard score 108, 37 months 70%tile
Kellar obtained the lowest score on the DAYC in the area of adaptive behavior primarily due to his not being potty trained yet, but that score is still within normal limits! Kellar can count, knows his colors and shapes, and can match like items. He speaks in complete sentences and comprehends and answers questions correctly. He appears to be functioning at age level. Kellar will be eligible for services due to a gross motor delay, he has balance and gait issues. He cannot hop or balance on one foot and has just begun to jump. He can squat, run and throw a ball.
Finally a report that doesn’t leave me in tears! I know that there are still prematurity issues that are lingering over our heads but Kellar is going to be alright, Kellar is going to continue to be the fighter that he was when he came into this world 14 wks to soon, there was no stopping him then and there will be no stopping him now! I cannot put into words how grateful I am for Kellar and the true happiness that this child has brought to my life, I love him. I love him more than I will ever be able to express. I have decided to hold off putting him in school until the start of the next school year. I am not ready. Kellar may be but mommy is not. I teared up today during the meeting when they asked if he was going to start on Monday, I can’t do it. I can’t imagine me being home keeping other children and my child not being there with me, the thought of missing him and not being able to hold him or kiss him anytime I wanted to got to me and I know that I am not ready for that separation yet. It’s coming and I know it is, August is not that far away and I have a few months to work on my separation issues but for now it’s to much and I just can’t do it, I can’t! I don’t go anywhere without Kellar, if I go to the store he goes with me sure it may be a pain or easier to run in and out without having to worry about wrestling with him but I feel like he should be with me, I knew that life was going to be different when Joey and I decided we were ready to have a child, and it is but it’s a different that I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world. I know that every parent needs their me time, I have one night a month I play buncko but after 2 hrs of me time I’m ready to get home to see what all I’ve missed. Joey and I need to find a weekend to go off and spend together but honestly I’m not sure if either of us will ever agree to it, we both feel that Kellar is supposed to be with us and we can’t see going on a trip or getaway without him. Maybe these feelings we have is because for 117 days we had to leave our baby in the care of other people, we had to rely on someone else to take care of him, if he was upset someone else had to comfort him, hold him and I never want to be that far away from him ever again! So as you can see I am having a hard time with the thought of school and being apart from Kellar, thank goodness I do have months to work on easing myself into this. Kellar will go to the school to get his therapy but it won’t be everyday all day thing, just a 30 minute session. Off to go hug and kiss my little fella…
