New pics…
I just added new pics from the last few weeks…including Kellar getting molded for his band (in the latest album). Just as a side note, Chrystal noticed that some of the albums have had over 100 views! That’s 100 different times that someone has viewed pictures in that album…it’s amazing how many people visit or have visited this site, more than i ever expected.
Undescribeable…
Yesterday we took Kellar to Dallas to get fitted for his cranial band so hopefully in a few months my lil mans head will be all round and pretty…We get checked in and Susan ( she deals with ins and has been more than helpful with me and my ins issues…very sweet lady..) came out to meet me, she said she had to meet the person she has talked to daily for almost a month…She was almost as excited as I am about Kellar finally getting his helmet and I told her how tickled I was that now the funds that they had came across could be used elsewhere, and she stopped and looked at me and said there really is no funds that we came across, that money was only for you..I was puzzled and said what do you mean, she said that someone called and said that they had met me and obviously knew of our situation w/our ins denials and said that they wanted to pay for Kellars band if it was denied again..I was speechless…I sat there not even knowing what to say, tears filled my eyes and even now as I type this I am tearing up all over again, to know that someone would be willing to do this for Kellar touches me so deeply..This person wanted to remain anonymous, but to whoever you are, THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for being so generous, and thinking of us…All day yesterday I just could not quit thinking about this, I honestly can not explain how this made me feel, it’s really undescribeable and I don’t know if I could ever really put into words what I felt, but again thank you for thinking of us…Kellars fitting was a nightmare, to see and hear your child screaming at the top of his lungs ( thank goodness we know he has excellent lungs ) was heartbreaking…They put this stocking over his face, and cut out a hole for his mouth for a binky or bottle, my bear looked like a little bank robber…I figured he would go nuts when they covered his face, he actually took that part quite well, but when she started puttting that wet plaster on, man he was not happy, at all..It took my dad, Becky and the tech to hold him down, and even then it was a challenge..The tech was like he is one of the strongest babies I have had..I fixed him a bottle which settled him for a brief period until it was time to sit him so she could do the back then the drama started all over again…Luckily it only had to set for a minute, and as soon as the stocking came off, his little lip puckered out, he was so pitiful looking, papaw had to save the day and grabbed him up, Kellar just laid his little head down and took advantage of all the loving he could..He had to have a bath before we left, he had plaster from head to toe…Our band will be in in 2 weeks..We also had our rsv shot at Tiny Tots, Kellar weighs 18 lbs 1 oz…Wow he gained 2 lbs in a month, butterball…We had a good trip, Kellar did well, of course Becky entertained him in the back seat, papaw did a good job and got us to and from Dallas safely, my ankle only throbbed a little the whole trip, of course those calf cramps were the worst part, I’m sure I’ll be paying for it later, I’ll probably be so sore I won’t be able to crawl out of bed tomorrow…
I’ll take days like this….
After the last few weeks, days like this are more than welcome..Our day started off with me going into the dr to have him take a look at this red dot that has appeared on my ankle and to see if he has any clue why once I stand I feel like someone is holding a blowtorch to my ankle since I broke it a week ago..Me being the paranoid person that I am was not about to take any chances, of course the dr thinks that it is fine, we did re x-ray it and it has not shifted, so that was great news..I actually guess I didn’t leave with an answer, but more peace of mind..I went and had a doppler done on my leg to rule out a blood clot since I have been having calf cramps, that too came back fine..Whatta relief that was, I felt much better except for the fact that I had to crutch around the entire hospital to get to where I needed to be, I now have raw spots in my armpits, so I not only feel like I’m being torched on my ankle but now in my pits as well, lovely I know…We took Kellar to Temple today for his OT eval, good news, no not good GREAT news…She doesn’t feel he needs to be seen for OT, Kellar is performing on a 10-12 month level, more 10-11 but a few things were more advanced, which means that being Kellar is actually 7 months ( in 2 days ) adjusted he is ahead of where he should be…Kellar needs to learn the “pincher” grasp, but again she said that this was something that they develop really when they are ready to start feeding themselves and she is not worried…He didn’t switch out toys when given the option to drop one and play with a new one, he kept the two he had, ok so my babys not hard to please is what I think that means..(haha)..The PT that we will see next week came in and was asking about Kellar, she looks over and he has his feet in his mouth, she was so excited to see that, she was like that is what I like to see right there…They said looking at him they would never know that he had a brain bleed…Unfortunately they have never seen a child with a cerebellum bleed, I was actually hoping that they had so maybe they could have something to tell me regarding what issues if any these children had, but this is where I have to let faith come into play and not worry about the “statistics” and just let Kellar be Kellar…Ok so I know you are like wow thats great, and yes it is, I am estatic, but it gets somewhat better, Kellar is army crawling, not quite up on all four crawling but he is attempting to crawl…Joey and Kellar were in his room and Joey was hollering for me to come in there because Kellar is crawling, of course I asked if he was serious before I hoisted myself up off the couch and hobbled in there…I get in there and he was like a wild man, his legs and arms were going everywhere, when all of a sudden, he got his knees under him, and put his arms out to drag him, then he launched forward, it was hilarious…He did this till he wore himself smooth out…Little stinker…Thank God that everyday Kellar does more and more and is one step closer to proving those statistics wrong, we go for PT next week so keep up the prayers..
Better late than never…
Happy Valentines to all of our readers…Sorry it’s late, but yesterday was not to loving of a day for me so I some how forgot that it was Valentines Day…Kellar did get some goodies though, like you all really thought bear would be left out…Brooke brought Kellar the cutest frog that sings, and she brought me some good ole’ chocolate, and yes of course I needed it…Lets see what else Kellar got, my mom got him a black and white cool cat that sings and the tail spins, a Care Bear and balloons, his grannie got him a cars toy and some money and of course lots and lots of love…I went to the bone dr, I left with some sort of robocop looking boot, thing comes up to my knee and is heavy heavy heavy…Luckily my break was a “good” break if that’s possible to comprehend..He said that 90% of ankle breaks end up being surgical but he doesn’t see mine needing that…I go back in 2 wks to have another x-ray and we’ll see how well it’s healing..I know it still hurts really really bad, I find myself somehow forgetting that it’s hurt and I’ll move my leg just right and it feels like someone knocked the wind out of me, once I catch my breath I think how stupid was that to try and kick the covers off with a broke ankle…I am slowly adjusting to getting up and about w/out using my left foot, it’s hard but each time that pain shoots up my leg, I remember and it makes it a little more fresh on my mind….
I am more than ready for Feb to be over with..
Isn’t February supposed to be the month of “love”..if so, where’s mine? The last month has just been… well crazy, between going back and forth w/ Kellars 2ndary ins on approving his band, to trying to get into Temple for more therapy services, my papaws dog AnnieMae decided that she wanted to taste of Kellars therapists’ leg last Thursday..I was worried about the bite, the bills and really worried about what they were going to do with AnnieMae because anyone who knows us knows that she is my papaws pride and joy, he was a nervous wreck which in turn made me a nervous wreck..Monday we get up at the crack of dawn to take Kellar to Temple ( yes we finally got a date set ) only to get there and have the receptionist tell me that she forgot to put us in that time slot and the soonest we can now be seen for OT is the 21 of Feb…I ended up going to the dr that same day because this lovely can’t make up it’s mind weather here in Texas has my sinuses doing back-flips…So this morning I get up, not quite the crack of dawn but close, really close so my mother in law and I can take Kellar to Dallas for his cranial band molding, I am walking down the steps w/him in his carrier, and what happened next I don’t know, somehow I managed to break my ankle, yes that’s right I broke it..Kellar is fine, that hurt me more than anything to think that I could have hurt him by falling, he never even cried nor budged..I knew that I couldn’t get up, here I am on 2 hands and one knee, my hurt ankle somehow is up in the air, and I can’t move, I can’t even roll over..My dad comes up and we somehow manage to get me up and into the car and head to the ER and the rest is history..I go tomorrow to get the cast put on..Please if you would keep me in your prayers, I don’t want to be totally helpless the next 6 wks and I sure don’t know if I can stand not being able to play with bear…and to think all I have been stressing over is turning 30 this month, I think that would have been a piece of cake compared to this….
