Eating more and more….
Kellars feedings have been upped to 49cc’s every 4 hours now, he is having some residuals but since they are “digested” looking, they just re-feed it and subtract the residual amount from what ever the amount is that he is supposed to be getting and continue…I am thinking his residuals are from the slow motility, I have noticed that if they check him right at the end of the 4 hours, he will sometimes have a residual, if they feed it back and wait about 10 more minutes and re-check it’s normally smaller if not gone…Maybe he is going to be one of the few that has to be fed over a longer stretch of time, or hopefully the motility will speed up as he gets older and closer to term…I think they are gonna go and close his ostomy the 2nd wk in July, and then hopefully not to much longer and Joey and I will be bringing our precious lil man home…He’s doing ok on the bottle feedings, he’s no pro by far but this too will improve with maturity…Tonight Leslie dressed him in one of the outfits she bought him, he looked just like a little man laying there all dressed up, such a cutie pa tootie…
Off the IV fluids…
Kellar is now officially off the IV fluids, so now heres hoping that some of that puffiness will go away and any weight he gains from here on will be true weight…He weighed in tonight at 5 lbs 15 oz, he lost a little but that’s what they are wanting since he has been so puffy…His O2 flow was lowered to .8 today and so far he has tolerated that well…His last round of antibiotics will be Fri and then the IV will be taken out of his hand…Although I know some of Kellars weight is fluid, he really has grown..I just wish all of you that keep up with his progress could have only seen him in person from the start to really get the full picture of how far God has brought Kellar, I know he looks “big” in the pictures, and the pictures from day one truly do not show how tiny he was but looking at him now it is even hard for me to remember how small he was and it was like one day I was holding him and it hit me just how much he has grown in 2 months…
Kellar and Mommys feeding..
Although I was not the first to feed Kellar, I did however get to feed him today…I was not going to miss this one, in fact I showed up 3o minutes early to make sure…He was so darn cute…It wore him out, he would suck for a second, then close his eyes, I would kind of move the bottle a bit and he would suck for a second then drift back off to sleep…But he did take 15 cc’s this go round, now heres praying that he will continue to take more and more and tolerate it….What he does not take from bottle is give to him through the tube down his throat over a pump…They have upped his feedings to 39 cc’s now and this goes over the pump for 3 hours ( a little over 13 cc’s an hour) and then they let it sit for a hour to give him some more time to hopefully digest it all the way…He weighed 6 lbs tonight, still not sure what’s fluid and what’s true weight although he does not look near as puffy as earlier in the week…
Warning…Moms pitty party….
Ok so maybe it really just hit me all the things I as Kellars mom have not got to do “first”…I was not the first one to hold Kellar after he was born, most moms have that first hold right after delivery, not me…I did not change his first diaper…I was not the first to see his beautiful eyes when they opened…His first bath was not given by me…I did not hear his first cry…His first night was not spent with Joey and I….The one thing I could have done first, I missed…I was supposed to feed Kellar tonight, something I could have done FIRST as a mommy, and I missed it…I was washing all of his linens so he could have “his” blankets in his crib and I realized it was about time to head up to the hospital, but his things were still wet so I called the nurse to let her know I would not be in to do his feedings, me not being a nurse did not realize that it had to be done from a bottle that day, I assumed the “first” bottle feeding could be done anytime, boy was I wrong and heart broken when I found out different…I called to see how his feeding from 4 pm went and was told that his nurse was busy feeding him, uhm what, feeding him as in bottle feeding him…My heart sank, I wanted to do at least one thing first with my son…I know this may seem silly to most, and honestly had the situation been different and Kellar came straight home with Joey and I, I too probably would have taken the “little” things like a first diaper, first bath and first bottle for granted, but not having that opportunity hurts…So now I have no pictures of his first feeding…Don’t get me wrong, I know that this situation is different, and I am so thankful for the wonderful nurses that Kellar has had and the majority of them are truly great they are only doing their job, but as a mom it hurts to have missed doing the “little” things…Soon he will be home with Joey and I and we will have the opportunity to do all these things….Please continue to pray for Kellar that he tolerates his feedings, that he can continue to handle the decrease in his O2 flow, and the bradys and desats will be a thing of the past and he can come off the IV fluids soon….Thanks….
Bottle feedings…
Kellar is now starting to “take” the bottle..Of course being he is so little this tires him out really quickly but he did take 12cc’s his first time so I think that’s fairly good for his first time…Either way I am proud of him..He lost a little of his weight, he’s 5 lbs 13 oz, still not sure what’s fluid and what’s true weight…Gosh I love this kid so much….
