Kellar see’s his mommy….
Joey and I have been just itching and itching to see our baby’s eyes…I talked to him and talked to him and he would raise his eyebrows and stretch his eyelids and I would get so excited thinking that he was finally going to show his eyes and then he’d stop and look as if he had drifted off to sleep…I wanted to see them so badly…Later that night we go in and the nurse tells me that he opened his eyes for her, I wanted to cry…I knew there was no way I was going to see my babys eyes tonight because he’s back under the photo therapy lighting…The next day we get there just in time, they are doing his assessment and his goggles are off…Here I am talking up a storm, begging him to please let daddy and I see your little eyes, and the popped open…I was so excited I wanted to jump up and down…His eyes..His eyes…And then he looked over at me out of the corner of his eye, I wanted to reach in and get him out of the isolette and love on him so badly…With the nurse messing with him, it really tires him out, and so he was out like a light and the goggles went back on…I love my baby so much and can’t wait till I can hold him in my arms…
He likes the jet vent…
Kellar is doing good….he likes the new vent much better…His blood gases are all coming back very well…The dr that we like so well said he’s looking much better..He also took the time to explain to us the difference in the vents…The one he came off of previously basically kept his lungs expanded where as this new one sends puffs of air into the lungs…I know not much information but if Kellar likes it mommy and daddy like it too…Another good day, nothing to do but thank God and continue to pray….I pull up a chair and sit and just stare at Kellar…It’s gotten to where I have to sit when I go in to see him, my feet are swelling so badly I can barely walk…It’s like the moment my feet hit the floor in the mornings they inflate….Joey and I are thinking it’s because I have been so inactive the last 3 1/2 months and now I am up and going constantly…
What is going on????
Joey and I make our usual morning trip to the NICU to take a peek at our precious baby boy…As we are walking up, there are windows and so of course I’m peeking before I ever get to the sink to scrub in, the closer I get I see that there are people all around his bed, lots of people…I just assume that they are assessing him for the morning…I scrub in and turn to wait on Joey, it seems to take him forever to dry off his arms, must be all the hair, and it looks like Kellar is going to be hairy just like his daddy…We enter the room , and there is this new machine…by my baby’s bed…and they are all looking down at him, then over at the machine, I’m frozen…I feel sick…What’s going on…The machines beeping, my hearts racing and I feel lightheaded, but I know if I pass out I’m just going to be an obstacle on the floor someones going to have to step over…I want to ask questions but I don’t want to disturb them, I look up at Joey and then back at Kellar…Finally someone notices us and the dr walks over and tells us that Kellar’s blood gases came back and they were not happy with them so they think he needs to be on a “jet vent”…Ok I feel a little better, I know what’s going on and that at least one of the many around my baby is a dr…It seemed to take forever for them to get this thing hooked up, in between all the beeps and alarms I am getting antsy, see I wasn’t aware that he wasn’t hooked up, I thought they had hooked him up and it just wasn’t working yet and I was on the verge of screaming to get someone in here that can hook this machine up now…Relief…It quit beeping and he’s all hooked up now and laying there so peacefully…They close the top down on his bed and he’s now under what’s called photo therapy lighting…This is used for baby’s with jaundice, another common thing in preemies…They put these thick cloth like sunglasses over their eyes and this bright light shines down on him and he just lays there, it kinda looks like he’s tanning…Not only is my baby a cutie pa tootie he’s also a cool cat…
A Dr. that can relate….
Today they repeated Kellars brain scan, I am so anxious and ready to tell everyone that the bleeds have resolved…We go in to see him, he’s so adorable and I am just squirming and aching to hold this little human being that has totally consumed all my thoughts….As we are standing and checking out every little tube and line to see if anythings changed, did they add anything, going through the was that there when we left last night routine over walks the dr that is going to be seeing after Kellar today…A really really nice man, and very understanding..He tells us great news right off the bat, Kellar looks better today than they have seen him yet…I turned and looked at my little man and thanked God for that….He said that the brain bleeds looked much better today than they did Sat, again I have no one to thank other than God and I will continue to pray against these brain bleeds…The dr wants to show us something, he reaches into his back pocket and pulls out his wallet to show us a picture of his son, who was born prematurely and was diagnosed with mild cerebral palsy…I look at this picture and see it’s a graduation picture, that touched me as his son had brain bleeds on both sides and to see that he graduated was just another sign to me that with lots of prayer and faith in God anything can happen…His son is now in college and close to graduating with a major in real estate marketing and even lives on his own…See this dr although he knows the grim side of things, also knows that there is hope and he went out of his way to tell us things that the other drs didn’t, I know that every situation is different, he is only a dr and there is only one person that can perform miracles, so while Joey and I listen to every word the dr says, we know to keep our faith in one person and one person alone and that’s in the Lord…
First surgery..
Today we found out that Kellar needs to have surgery to close the vessel that runs by his heart, it’s called a PDA…This is a common surgery and one that the surgeon has performed many a times…He comes into the family room and explains the procedure to us and said that he feels Kellar will really benefit from having this done, okay if this will help my baby let’s do it..Within an hour the surgeon comes in and Kellar has done well and he’s resting, of course the anesthesia has him pretty much out of it for the remainder of the day and night…Praise God he did so well in surgery…We were informed that the brain bleeds are on both sides, but they are going to repeat the scan on Monday and we should know if they seem to be looking any better than the previous one…There he is..So strong and so loved….Nothing left to do but continue to pray and thank God for the miracles he’s performing daily….
