Preparing myself…
Kellar starts pre-k 4 in September and I’m already trying to mentally prepare myself for sending my baby off to school. I know he’s got to go, he really needs the structure but the thought of it breaks my heart, he’s growing up and maybe I’m just not ready for it. We are going to send him to a small school, the teacher only takes maybe 15 kids, she taught my brother years ago and knows my dad really well so that makes me feel a little better, not to mention everyone that I know that has used her loved her! I feel like I’ve failed in preparing Kellar for school though, that also makes me sad! I’ve tried to teach him things but it’s like talking to this computer screen, he has no interest in anything to do with numbers or letters. When he was 2 he was counting to 20 and now I do good to get him to count to 5, he was singing his ABC’s and now he refuses to say them, he will not sit down to attempt to learn to make the first letter of his name, I don’t know what to do other than hope and pray he’s only being stubborn because it’s me asking him to do these things. I have asked several other parents and they all pretty much say their child does the same thing and then he gets to school and just blows the teacher away, lord please let my child do this haha! He’s smart I have no doubt, somedays I’m boggled at the stuff he knows but he’s also stubborn and that may be a issue when it comes to the “structured” part of school. We decided that him only going for 1/2 a day would be plenty for now, he’s got the rest of his life to be at school all day long so he’ll go for 3 1/2 hrs then go home and hopefully be more willing to work with Joey and I on things pertaining to learning. Onto other things, Kellar still hasn’t really grasped the concept that there will be a baby in the house in 5 months or so, he’ll talk about his baby sister YES IT’S A GIRL but I’m not sure he’s fully aware of what will take place and that he’s not going to be the only baby in the house. We have some major toy cleaning we have to get done before long, our house is going to be quite crowded but we’ll make do. I had some changes with my job which resulted in a paycut so that put a change in our plans of getting into a bigger house, but it will all work out in the end I just have to keep reminding myself that God is in control of the situation and he’ll see us through this as well. And that’s about all that’s going on in our little part of the world, just trying to stay cool during the summer and prepare for school and a baby girl!!!!!
Since our last update…
Lets see….Kellar celebrated his 4th birthday with a wonderful party at Bounce A Lot with all of his family and friends. Kellar found out he’s going to be a BIG BROTHER!!!!! I’ll have to get back with you later to tell you how excited he is or when he finds out that this means sharing attention how unexcited he is, though I think he’s going to be a awesome big brother. Kellar has fallen in love with swimming and being in the water and has no fear which makes me a bit nervous! I have got to get him enrolled in swimming lessons, watching him maneuver his way around the pool I think he’ll do great and catch on quickly. Kellar is growing like a weed, he’s so tall and has turned into such a big big boy, makes me so sad to think that he’s going to be going to pre-k in a few months. Kellar loves kids, he loves playing with kids and asks every day to go to MeMe’s and play with the kiddos, this is one thing I know he’ll love about school. Kellar thinks he has to be on the go constantly, he never wants to stay home, this to at times breaks my heart. If someone is leaving he wants to go, he doesn’t care who it is he just wants to go but come night time he’s ready to come home to mommy and daddy. Our summer has been pretty boring, we had a vacation that we were wanting to take but being pregnant I just didn’t think I needed to chance it with walking all over the place plus this heat in Texas right now is horrible!!!! So notta whole lot to report we’re pretty boring around here right now but it’s great!!!!
4 years ago today….
A Preemie Prince named Kellar was born. Every year my child teaches me more and more about life, he teaches me how the small things really do matter, he teaches me how to smile when I’m upset, he teaches me how to laugh when I really want to scream, he teaches me that love in unconditional! I sometimes find it hard to believe that my baby boy is 4 years old, where has the time gone? He’s getting so big, he’s becoming such a big boy and I miss that “baby” that he used to be though he’ll always be “my baby”. I’m so thankful for Kellar and all that he has become and I look forward to all the he will be. Happy Birthday Kellar!
Easter 2010
Let’s play catch up….
Since I’m a horrible blogger now days! Kellar is doing amazing and growing like a weed. He is still a Monster Jam fanactic and we recently went to Dallas to see Monster Jam again, this one was so much better than the one in Little Rock. Kellar was so excited to see Grave Digger and Monster Mutt, he got his Monster Mutt hat autographed by the driver, I thought that was really cool. But what would a trip out of town be if we didn’t have to make a trip to the pedi the following Monday, seriously it would be awesome but this is still something that lingers around and just reminds us of Kellars rough start at life and since he is getting sick less and less I’m sure within a few years we’ll come back from a out of town trip and he’ll leave all the germs and bugs out of town. Speaking of bugs and germs….Kellar caught strep and scarlatina last week, poor baby was broke out on his stomach and back pretty bad, it felt like sandpaper and his tongue looked like it was wearing a white fur coat but thankfully he bounced back from that pretty easily. Kellar is going to be 4 in a few weeks, I’m not sure where the time has went but it doesn’t seem like my little boy should be turning 4 years old, I want to cry but then again I’m so thankful that he’s here, he’s doing so well and we are so blessed. Kellar still has the funniest personality and can seriously make me laugh for hours, he’s so fun to be around. I think he’s doing awesome though the obvious differences still stand out against other kids, it hurts me for him though he has no idea that he looks different when he’s running, he looks a little different sometimes when he’s walking, when he’s turning in circles and he’s holding his head so far to the side his ears touching his shoulder, he’s happy and smiling the whole time and though I’m so proud of my child and I love him more than anything my heart hurts for the day that someone comments on it or asks me about it. I hate thinking of the day that I have to explain to someone why he does what he does. What if he comes home from school one day and is upset because he fell while running and the other kids made fun of him, what will I do, how will I handle it? Maybe it’ll get better or maybe it’ll always be a reminder that he was 14 wks early and he’s exactly how God intended for him to be, he’s my pride and I love him exactly the way that he is!
