We’re backkkkkkk….
It’s been so long since I’ve blogged I think I may have forgotten how! Kellar and I are just enjoying summer though the heat is not a very enjoyable part. We are working on potty training, it’s going pretty good if you consider just dropping your pants and doing what ever the need is no matter where you are. I admit part of it may be my fault since I told him that pottying in the yard meant he was “watering” the grass, that part I’m okay with but his attempt at fertilizing the concrete I’m thinking is not such a great idea. I get pretty tickled at him when he’s on the potty and he says in the sweetest voice “here fishy fishy” okay okay so maybe telling him he’s feeding and watering the fish was stretching the truth a little but if it works it works! I find myself laughing at him here lately so much, I’ve said before how he cracks me up and there’s no way I can ever blog all the funny things this kid says but there are a few I remember. We were in Khols hunting for Fathers Day gifts and for whatever reason we let him walk like a big boy instead of dragging out the stroller, well he decides he’s going to run through the shoe dept like a wild child and I said “Kellar if you don’t get over here I’m going to whoop your tail”, he stopped and looked back at me and said “I don’t have a tail” I guess he told me didn’t he? Joey and Kellar were on the couch playing and Kellar wanted his binky * yes yes yes he still has a binky, he’s my kid and I said it’s ok * and Joey took it and put it behind his back and said we need to throw the binky away, Kellar said “how bout we wait on throwing away the binky” then he proceeded to tell us we needed to go to Wal-Mart and buy him more binkys. He is so bossy but he’s so cute! Joey and I were going back and forth at each other ( we were playing not serious ) and Joey said “woman let me tell you something” we had no idea that Kellar was actually even paying attention to us and a few minutes later Kellar walked into our bedroom where Joey was and turned and stuck his head in the hallway and screamed at the top of his lungs “let me tell you something woman” I walked in the bedroom and found Joey in the closet almost in tears he was laughing so hard! There is never a dull moment. Kellar has also developed a BIG seperation anxiety. I am not able to leave the room without it resulting in a major meltdown, it’s heartbreaking but it is also starting to wear me out. I can’t even go into the next room or if he turns around and can’t see me he panics, I don’t know what to do but I’m hoping returning to work will help some. I have decided to go back to work in the “public” and though it is breaking my heart to think about leaving him and not being able to spend every hour of the day with him I feel that it may be the best thing for Kellar right now especially if we are going to put him in pre-k in August. I am really torn over my choice and have even went back and forth on whether I should do this but I think we are at that point to where Kellar needs to be with someone other than me, for the past 3 years I have been home with him every single day, he’s never spent the night away from Joey or I and it’s just going to make it hard on him when it comes time for school. I have cried and tried to talk myself out of it, I’m gonna miss my baby boy, if it doesn’t work out I won’t hesitate to stay home. Kellar went and spent the day with him Grammy, she wants to come and get him on Mondays, I was really afraid he wasn’t going to go but he did and I think he really enjoyed it. Gosh the last few days have been wild, Michael Jackson died, wow I was a MJ fan when I was younger and I’ve been sitting around watching his videos and I remember every one of them, even remember being in Peppermint Drill Team ( it was a dance team when I was a kid ) and doing a dance to it, I know it’s not Kellar related sorry! I have got tons of pictures to get up, I think the ones where he caught his first fish are priceless. We are going on our first family vacation next weekend, I’m excited and can’t wait. I’ll be back eventually with a picture post….
Yes…
We’re still around! I’ll eventually get around to updating..one day..hopefully! Notta lot going on just, well notta lot going on!
Hot…Cold…Rainy…Hot…Rainy…Cold…
What is the deal with our weather, one day it’s hot, the next it’s chilly and my goodness at the storms we’ve been getting in our area. I love the rain and by the middle of summer most will be praying for a few drops of rain so I’m not complaining about rain in general but good grief I could really do without all the storm warnings and tornadoes popping up in random spots, not to mention I think all this back and forth has gotten my little one sick…again! I took Kellar to the dr on Thursday because he had been running a temp for a day or so and yesterday morning it was up to 103.2 and he had started to cough. The usual routine..blood work, chest xray and xray of his sinuses. Kellars chest xray looked good ( thank you Lord ) but his sinus one shows that his front sinuses are almost completely stopped up! Kellar also has really developed a fear of the dr’s office and anyone who comes into the room, it really breaks my heart that he’s been through so much and the sight of someone at the clinic sets him off. As soon as the dr walked in the room he latched onto me and started crying and telling me he wanted to go home, I felt so bad. Then came the blood work, I hate having to help hold my child down while someone is hurting him, he was screaming “hold me mommy”, “hug me mommy” and fighting with all he had in him to get off that table and in my arms, I hate having to see him so upset it makes me feel horrible! Then comes the xrays, no pain involved but he’s already so upset over the bloodwork and this was another 15 minutes of screaming and fighting and me feeling absolutely horrible again! I was very relieved that we got to come home and avoided a hospital stay. My poor baby has been coughing nonstop and his fever shoots right back up once the motrin or tylenol wears off and his shirt has become his snot rag! I keep hearing how he’ll eventually get past getting sick so easily but right now it seems like it’s so far away, I’m not trying to be whiny but when he gets sick it makes me very uneasy and panicky..especially with the continuous cough he has now. I’m ready for my fella to feel better….
3 years later…
and I’m still a worry wart. We had such a fun weekend planned but this swine flu scare put a dent in it. I called yesterday and cancelled our reservations for the NICU Reunion, our hotel and the train ride we were going to take from Grapevine to Ft. Worth. I was so looking forward to seeing some of our nurses and getting to see how much Kellars NICU buddies have grown. I took Kellar to the dr Monday and Tuesday, he had a fever over the weekend and had started coughing early Monday morning. On Monday his lungs sounded good so we thought he had just picked up a cough, possibly croup. Joey and I had noticed that Kellars appetite was down and when he attempted to drink he would cry out in pain. I asked for something to numb his throat in case it was beginning to get sore and went ahead and took him back in on Tuesday. The dr swabbed him for flu, strep and mono and thankfully all came back negative. He also ordered blood work since Kellar hadn’t been drinking and a chest xray b/c he sounded differently than he did the day before. The chest xray was done “bigger” to show Kellars sinuses and we also ordered a xray of his belly b/c he was going on 3 days of no poopy. Kellars sinuses were almost completely stopped up and he seriously needed to poo! The dr gave him a shot of antibiotic and put him on oral antibiotics for 10 days and I picked up some suppositories and much to his not liking we had a dirty diaper before the night was over! I am going back and forth on taking him back in, his cough is pretty much nonstop, he’s had fever off and on and his nose is a constant drip! I went ahead and called this afternoon and we’re going to try doing breathing treatments every 4 hrs and see if we can avoid a dr’s visit. Sydney was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday w/pneumonia and dehydration (sound familiar..Kellar was admitted with the same thing in March…) lets pray she gets to come home tomorrow and that Kellar will dodge a admission and get all better at home!
Happy 3rd Birthday…
I can’t believe my baby boy is 3 today. As I sit and think about the last 3 years I look over at my precious little man as he sleeps so peacefully and I smile because he is a miracle! Kellar you are awesome, you are one of the most determined people I have ever met and I know that there is nothing that you won’t do once you put your mind to it. I love you…
